Anyway, I want to share you guys an entry I wrote while in school.
[Sat. Nov. 7, 2009]
Dear Dia,Ow. :( My classmate tried to read my blog but she said she can't. Why? Because it's in freakin' ENGLISH! >O Like, we learn English and she's one of the best English Speakers in class, how could she get a nosebleed just by reading this? =.= Dammit. Which means all my post are total wastes in the eye for them. Dx They can never understand me. >.>
It's 9:55 AM, and I'm in school today...ugh. ON A SATURDAY. I've really been feeling rather lonesome lately. I mean, more lonely than ever.
-My friend's name here- doesn't go to the canteen anymore. I can't be with her friends since I'm not really really friends with her classmates. (except for 1 or 2) And in Crunchyroll I don't get to talk much with my fav buds anymore. Just how do I get over this? I can't be alone forever. Damn life is hard.
Ohoho, I'll try Kobato. in my anime pleasure. I hope it will be awesome...
Ookaaayyyy...I dunno what to say now. Ugh, so bored. Guess I'll just...wait. NEXT PAGE!
*next page*
Mm. My canteen adventure a while ago. Guess I won't call it an adventure. It was really boring. Well anyway, what happened in the canteen was... nothing. I was all alone in their table. And one Agap 1 student came to me because there weren't any tables left. I looked like a fool. I finished my meal early and I had nothing to do afterwards. Sooo boring. I just need something to do so people won't notice me and consider me an unsociable loner. That would just be sad.
And why won't I join my classmates? Ahahaha, wouldn't I look twice more of a fool if I did so? They'll just end up ignoring me anyway. From my every word to how I move and to the way I stand in front of them... nothing. So it's better off not to join them. They forget me, I forget them. Simple.
Though it makes me feel like the sore looser in the class. I pity myself. I tried every way possible to socialize with them and still keep the real "me" at the same time. But I guess it just couldn't work for them. Sucks.
What's wrong with me? Do I have problems that make my situation bad too? Uh. Probably. Maybe I was raised unproperly and thought school as "a place with all the kinds of people that I need to respect thus no self-expression at all". Yeah, maybe. I do treat school a lot different than home. It's just, wrong. I'm always so quiet.
I'll conclude that everyone, including me, is a problem. What a troublesome era I live in.
Damn. Damn. Damn Damn. D a m n. When will I gain total domination of this class. It's been 5 months and I only have 1 friend. Guess I'll go now. Ja.
-my sig. here-
OHH THE DRAMA. XD
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