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Part two. Hm, I know most of you people, especially you, my
I've been pitiful. For the past week I've been feeling more down than ever. Oh god. Just how long will I have to be with them? =.=
Okay, so when we were in our Values Education class last Tuesday, we had an Open Forum. Where t'was the time we open up ourselves to the class. I had soo much to tell. Because I still have A LOOT of problems with my "classmates". I was very nervous, though. My hands were shaking...and there's this thing that keeps me from raising my hand. I murmured to myself that I had something to say, then my seatmate (my buddy from past post), encouraged me. But I was still reaaallly nervous. Because I'm not really the type who can open up easily and go all BOO-HOO dramatic. So I just said: "I'll just let them finish."
It was like...very few minutes before the bell rings when I had the urge to raise my hand. So I asked one simple question as quickly as I could: "Besides quiet, what other things do you think about me?" ...The class paused for a few seconds. Each second is like...dunno...10 heartbeats? xD (lol) Was nervous. And then...this girl raised her hand. She said, "Makisali ka naman sa amin minsan.". In English, it means "Join with us every once in a while." ...Uhh...DUHH. It's already o b v i o u s. And I think I heard one guy said "Boring." They laughed. And then the bell rang. So the teacher said we'll continue next week.
Boring...boring, huh? Their thickheadedness strikes again.
I'm waiting desperately for Tuesday now. I feel like, I want to do a 50-minute speech in front of them. Just to say how I feel. But then again...maybe they won't plant it in their tiny brains again. I opened up a month ago and it's still the same. Same. Same. Same. Same.
Like, the many times in Facebook. I kept posting...and posting...and posting stuff like "I hope we'll become good friends, Agap 2." or "Talk to me..." and some stuff like that. And kept spamming links about this BLOG just to show how I feel about them. I know, this blog, every post, will show how different I am from the way they think. But know what they said? "It's in English. Damn I'm getting a nosebleed. I didn't continue because I can't understand half of what you're saying." ...English? Damned English? To think...we're in the elite section, the section with the highest grades, can't understand simple English? And what's more, we've been learning the damned language for 8 years since pre-school.
"..." My reaction. Yes, dots. No comment. Just like that.
Or should I be blaming myself? It is a little bit of my fault, too. My only trouble is...well I don't automatically approach people. I wouldn't call it shy, but I just don't like making the first move. Because I...often get left out in the end when I approach the people I like to be friends with. So, to be safe, I'll let them approach me. I mean, most of my best friends now were the ones who made the first move. And I'm really picky. Yeah, how low and foolish of me.
I wish they could understand me, though. Probably, just like what I've said earlier, they won't give a shit of what I'm saying right now. But at least I've said it. I hope...I just, hope that it's not too late. Darn, my first year of high school turns out to be a fail, because of them. And I REAALLLYYY wish they're reading this right now. And reach this point. And maybe...maybe they'll see.
Misunderstood. That's me in my school, kinda. But, they dare think low of my skills? Of what I can do? Of what my ablilities are? Ohoho, they have crossed the line. And because of that...this is kinda stupid but...I deleted all my Agap 2 friends in Facebook. (XD) Make me piss off like this again and I'll delete all connections towards them.
And there goes a waste of a post. Yay. You made it.
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